Tag: silence

Everybody is talking about forgiving…

by Soulful Storytellers, LLC, posted in Eclectic thoughts

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“Time heals all wounds.”

Time… How much of it do we truly have? Wounds heal yet leave a scar to remind us of our injury. So how do we forgive for our scars never truly let us forget? As i think about all the jumbled pain I feel in an effort to find ways of reconciliation I come back to how much more time will I need to heal?

“We never know the day or the hour”

At this rate “When my roll is called up yonder” I will be transitioning with unforgiveness in my heart. Just the thought of that makes me a little more depressed. Many people could care less about letting go of anger, pain and heartbreak. For them it is all part of life, yes this is true, but do we want those things to become part of our death?

Holding on to these negative feelings kills a piece of you every day.  The snowball rolls increasing in size and the more it grows so does the bitterness and disillusionment of ‘how wonderful life can be.’ It chips away at the possibility of fulfilling dreams in this life… To the best of our knowledge THIS is all we have.

“So you live, so you die..”

I don’t want to take the weight of unforgiveness anywhere, do you? How can we be pulled up into the rapture if our hearts are heavy?  How can our spiritual souls travel the astral plains with weighted ankles?

“The longest Psalm has amen…”

We all have differing spiritual beliefs, despite those differences we share the common ground of wanting/needing to remove the weight of emotional pain. If we had the power to turn back time it would be to do things differently so we can release pain and increase love… Love ourselves, a person, a passion.

Time is not limitless, it’s precious and we waste so much of it…. So how do we begin to heal…

The journey of healing and releasing those weights will take on different forms: prayer, meditation, exercise, charity work, music, writing, traveling, speaking … It’s all about replacement. Whatever medium you choose never choose the path of indifference or self -destruction.

When you become indifferent there are no feelings left and you become even more hardened to the world. Those ankle weights rise up weighing down your calves, knees, thighs… You become firmly set, like cement, and you have given power to the darkness.

That darkness fuels your self-destruction… Covering those weights with drugs, alcohol, wanton behaviors that often end up leading to self-assisted death. Pain so deep that the strength to heal is overpowered by the desire to die. You take temporary solace in self-destructive behavior to quiet the voices in your head that remind you of pain and raise the voices of darkness that convince you to eliminate pain by repeating acts of self-destruction. Then one day the voices are no more, you are no more. Did it fix your problem or just extend the cycle of pain to the loved ones you have left grieving, wondering how could I have helped? Why didn’t I listen more, see more…?

“Life is filled with pain and disappointment.”

Oh yes it is, for some more than others. One thing that holds true once you work through the pain and disappointment you can find renewed strength. You can be a voice to others, the ears to listen, the arms to hug, the hope for someone else.

What you needed you can now offer to someone else. When you become an anchor for another they will become an anchor for you.

Back to the beginning…is it that time heals wounds? I guess that’s a personal assessment.  the desire to heal starts within oneself and we must reach out to others so we will not rot within.

For me… My replacements are in motion and if they fail I will find better ones. I have no time to waste on people or things in which we don’t share a mutual level of value.

© Soulmuze 2015

Silence…The longest journey

by Soulful Storytellers, LLC, posted in Eclectic thoughts

The power,  the need for self-expression. Everything we do is an art, an outlet of expressionism. What isn’t spoken, is painted, is danced, is put to music, is worn, is acted…

Yet we are on the longest journey of silence. Many of us fear the lack of acceptance or understanding by others so we are silent…muted.

‘We have freedom of speech,’ so they say, as long as it is confined within our respective domains.

‘We have freedom of religion,’ so they say, as long as it adheres to societal standards.

‘We have freedom of expression,’ so they say, as long as we don’t offend a particular group of people.

“We have the freedom of silence,” so I say, for that is the longest journey we endure from the cradle to the grave.

As infants we cry too much, too loud yet how will you know our needs?

As toddlers we talk too much but why do you tell us to use our words?

As adolescents we are too nosy, inquisitive, too much attitude but how do we begin to learn about life and why don’t you teach us to respond better?

As adults we think we know it all but we are always being challenged so how do we stand against those who are wrong?

As lovers we want too much closeness, intimacy, romance but isn’t that part of love?

As elderly we share our past repeatedly but how do you expect to learn and prepare for your future?

We want to silence one another because we can’t be bothered, not interested, heard it all before … If our ancestors allowed themselves to stay silent would we be here?

Should we have silenced our grass roots political activists, educators, inventors, artists, poets, etc.?

If our parents silenced their desires would you be here  today?

Our failure to express is creating our inability to express.

We are silenced so often that when we need to break it our messages risk distortion. We become destructive, attacking fueling the catalyst of negative empowerment.

When we are done we continue on the longest journey of silence.

Internalizing our feelings, scrambling our minds, altering our auras becoming cold and dark.

We smile to please but harbor so much resentment for one another.

We say that we ‘love’ but how can we love unconditionally with the baggage trapped in our hearts as a result of silence.

Silence…the longest journey, the most deafening sound and always the champion.

 At what point do we stop being afraid to share our feelings, stop being afraid of rejection.

For me, I share the journey of silence. I break it with those who care to hear which is few and far between. I welcome those who want to break their silence with me for with each break in that journey I heal, learn, grow and lend more than just an ear but an open, cleaner heart.

© Soulmuze 2012