I believe in the power and the messages that are sent thru sleeping visions or dreams. They are not to be discarded but to be respected and placed in what I call a “dream vault” for you may have to reference them later. Every dream may not be directed to you, it can also be towards those who surround you. Their energy infiltrates yours like a lightning bolt and your sleeping visions cross into their zone. The more those people become imbedded in your life, the more they will blend into your energy super highway.
It’s not always clear who the dreams is directed towards but retain them anyway. Write them down, keyword, colors, landmarks, anything that jumps out to you. Recently my sleeping vision told me to “dream backwards.” Confused? Well I was until I prayed on it (yes I pray, if I didn’t I would be dead in so many ways).
Dream backwards, dream backwards, dream … I got it! This year marked a ten year anniversary of change in my life. So I needed to now look back ten years, evaluate where I was then, compare it to now and only then can I face forward for the next ten. What a reflection I had to face, it was a hard but truthful look. I had made significant strides with so much of my life but the one thing that remained the same are some of my relationships.
I saw changing participants yet it’s still a game. Ten years and still I’m just a token on some people’s board game. A token that only gets moved when the right card is pulled. The token that only lands in the right square if the dice is rolled to the right number. So what now? How much have I really improved with respects to me, decisions and associations if I’m still a token on a game board with other tokens? Am I also putting people on a game board? Or maybe I’m not, and should be just to make it an even match. But if I don’t like the position for myself, I can’t do it to others just because… I wasn’t designed that way, and if I redesign myself to play the game I will degrade the quality of who I am.
Dream backwards… Those I have encountered in the ten year journey have gained so much from me yet I have lost so much with them. Or did I really lose? Was the role I played my destiny? I won’t deny feelings of regrets, resentment and just being angry. I did learn but not as much as I have lost, I have to say ‘lost’ because right now that’s what I feel. Maybe it will change, but just not today.
Dream backwards… Now that I have looked back, how do I proceed forward? That’s a question I throw out to the universe and wait for a sleeping vision to guide me. As I have glanced back, and looked forward I will retain ‘hope’ for change. I’m not big on ‘hope’ as it has just lead to a bottomless pit of disappointment, however, I will try to rebuild it into my vocabulary. As I write this I think maybe it should be permanently replaced with ‘faith.’ Faith, that I will transition from a token to a priceless gift that will be cherished and maintained with the delicacy of an ancient artifact or a painting. Faith that I will not revert and sacrifice my quality to create a game board for others, for that will translate to revenge. Faith, that whenever I dream backwards I will see growth and be lifted like a feather to glide forward. Faith, that the power of my thoughts, words and deeds will help others to be graced with loyalty, love, kindness and timeless appreciation.
Yes, I will replace ‘hope’ with ‘faith’ as I call out to the ultimate power of the universe, the Most High, the Almighty who knows the purpose He has for me. It will not be easy, for disenchantment has a hold on me, but faith will get me thorough as I wait for more sleeping visions… dreams… to guide my way.
I have completed the journey at hand to dream backwards, now I prepare to dream forward.
Faithfully and soulfully me…
© Soulmuze 2012
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