Not living as if it’s my last

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I’m not concerned with living each day as if it was my last.

My world almost ended countless times yet the universe saw fit to allow me to see the beauty of another sunrise, sunset and the light of the moon.

I’d rather look into a child’s eyes believing in a better tomorrow. I’d rather listen the rattling voices of the elderly as they tell their stories of survival and days gone by.

I’d rather not live with reckless abandon but with purpose. I’d rather live on the wings of love than of fear or hate which breeds contempt.

I’d rather believe that the Gods which covers all within my heart and gives me spiritual insight into the darkness has great work that I must fulfill before this earthly journey is complete and my next one begins.

Yes, I live out of the love of my spiritual design.

(c) Soulmuze 2017

Ultimate Thresholds, do they truly exist?

Have you considered your dead end threshold, the ultimate violation (in your eyes) which once that line is crossed there is no turning back.

I, like the rest of the world, had/has/will continue to have my fair of shit thrown at me.  When I think about the wrong done to me which triggered my retaliation I start thinking, is this the justification for evolution… Don’t monkeys throw shit at each other ?… Hmmmm

Don’t get mad, get even… But what happened to do unto others as you would have them to do unto you? … Unless you get off on negative behaviors you may not want to live your life in a spiral of warring with mankind.

The handbook for life is the most unique book ever created and only one is written per person. We each author our own book, creating our own  rules and exceptions on a case by case basis. We determine that final ultimate violation rule that no matter who you are once crossed it’s a done deal. You may as well sell your soul to the devil because that relationship is over…

 Or is it? I think we all have some type of morals, at minimum an ounce, so why do we often ignore that final line? Is it the forgive -forget factor or nobody’s perfect; it will get better if I just do this one thing; acknowledgement of karma; lack of confidence that a better relationship awaits us; are we so caught up in what other people think our actions become determined by society’s view; or do we simply enjoy the pain and humiliation?

Let me clarify, when I say relationship I’m speaking of any type of relationship, this isn’t solely about the intimacy spectrum, it’s every and any relationship. 

Every moment we face this dilemma of managing thresholds and sticking to our personalized life handbook.  No matter how hard we try avoid it, we keep rewriting our thresholds and expanding the exception list. To get what we want we add work-arounds to our personalized handbook,  aligning with someone else’s, over time slowly corrupting the lines. darkening or lightening those areas that once defined your uniqueness and tolerance levels.

We all know that one person who will say “I will never!”, better yet you are that one person who said and will continue to say “Hell no! If that was me… I would never..” (Think about what I just said)…

Replay parts of your life how many times have you or that one friend eaten those words? Not only do we throw the shit we eat it too! Does it make us bad, stupid, immoral, desperate…? No that’s what makes us human. We will judge others for their decisions and justify those same decisions when applied to self.

So do we really have that drop dead ultimate threshold line? One of the most popular tattoos to date is “only God can judge me” oh really now… So why do we ALL have something to say about someone? Our whole entertainment system is designed to fuel opinions, our court system has a judge and jury, the media has their opinion, our parents are our judge until we can stand independently, etc. So do you truly believe only God can judge you?… God gave man the will to make our own decisions which lead to judgment of man by man.

Until the end-of-days arrive we will judge each other be it right or wrong.

We will adjust that threshold even though we know better because we need to either satisfy ourselves or please the masses.

Ultimate thresholds, do they truly exist?

© Soulmuze 2013

A prayer for the disenchanted

Your forgiveness I ask of you today
For I am saddened and depressed in the worse way

I appreciate all the blessings bestowed upon me
Yet I’m drowning in silent misery

The weight on my shoulders have curved my back
I no longer have the will to pull myself up so I can stand erect, in fact…

I am so hunched over I only see defeat
I call out to you, help me find the victory I seek

Every 1 and 2 steps forward I am pushed back 10
Where is your light? When will the darkness end?

Eternal hope is my refuge
I know with you I cannot lose

Yet today I cry and call out to you
Please my Father pull me thru

Yes I ask you to forgive me for I allowed the demons to step in today
To darken my heart, to alter my way

I cry streams, lakes, rivers, oceans and now I’m pushed to waterfalls
Do I just let go to the demons and end it all?

Hear my cry Almighty, the Most High
At the hand of the demons I must not die

I have read every Psalms, kneeled down in prayer
My heart is pure, my God are you there?

I don’t need signs like lightening strikes or your likeness to appear in smoke
I need you to strengthen my resolve, continually renew my hope.

Forgive me Father if I question your ear
I humble myself to you, for you I love and fear

I will continue to pray with a repentant heart
and wait on you Lord to give me a new start

© Soulmuze 2012

Dear God it’s WE…

Please don’t take offense to the questions we ask

For we just want to know when this misery will pass

We are tired, we are weak, we are worn

We can’t believe for this we were born

Mistakes have been made, lessons have been learned

Yet we cannot find love for one another that which we yearn

We come to you on bended knees with open hearts

For you are the foundation, our very start

We ask you to purify the ground on which we stand

For your powers far exceed any man

Please don’t take wrath for the questions we are about to ask:

Do you feel we are truly unrepentant of our sins?

Amongst the wicked many good people walk

Do we have to physically die to truly live?

Spiritual wars, fighting evil in every way

Will you really turn your back on us if we took our own lives today?

Will you take into account that we could not stand anymore?

Dear God it’s We, not me

I speak on behalf of the many that are afraid to leave questions at your door

I am not afraid for I trust in you and you know my heart is pure

Some became disillusioned and took flight

Yet we ask that they are offered salvation too,

for they truly do not know what they do

Dear God it’s We

Tears flowing, as requests of forgiveness escapes our lips

Hands raised and held up high

Not just here asking you why

Dear God it’s We,

Imperfect in every way, standing before you today

Admitting there is so much we don’t understand

We desperately need your almighty hand.

© Soulmuze 2012